May 6 2021 - Just another day

May 6, 2021

Three draft beers, a double whiskey, a modified Black&White, a bag of pistachios, garlic bread and Syrian tomato salad. 

The cherry is blooming. 

I should be happy. I am not. The grey syrup that is my life and the three antidepressants I take in the morning tell me that. I should be happy. But all I want is to sleep, listen to books and sleep. To drown out the grey and the anxiety ripping through me.